Sunday, June 13, 2010

Yesterday the Devil was in full bloom!!

I got up this morning so tired because I didn't get to sleep until about 4am with all the stuff I was going through yesterday. Some nasty things were said about me, my past was thrown up AGAIN, everyone gained up on me except a few people. You want to know what it was over? I was trying to do was serve, love and show mercy. Can you believe it. I got jumped on for doing what God asks me to do. I seen nothing wrong with my post I made but others took it way way way wrong and then it became "bash Ashlee day".

The old me before I gave my life back over to God would have had some really nasty things to say to these people. But I am living a different life, a life that is to please no one other than God, so I did what God would want me to do and kept my mouth shut, prayed for those who are without God, those who were talking so nasty about me. I learned a big lesson in Humility yesterday.

So, when I got up this morning I prayed that God would show me what I needed to read in the bible this morning, what did he want me to take from this experience, what was I supposed to learn? He always pulls through doesn't he....LOL!! Here is what God had to say to me......
Psalm 16.....

What a wonderful God to say to me be like David. Know that I am your protection, I give you everything that you need, and in me your soul can rest in safety.

There is always someone or something trying to bring me down. In the past it would have worked but over the past year I have changed so much and recently as I have put all my faith in God and let him take over (bc my way never worked all that well) I have a sense of peace. I know I am going to be okay because I have God. I know that the things that people say come from evil and to pray for them, that they will find God like I did. I'm sure I had plenty of people praying for me when I acted all nasty. It must have worked!!

Yesterday I was so floored because I was lynched all because I was trying to do the right thing. I knew I was safe, I knew God would take care of the situation, I stood strong in my faith because I know God has my back. One person says "and yea you act like you are so into God wow ppl like you make me sick". Isn't that crazy, how people can be so nasty and cruel and especially when we are talking about God. I can't even imagine what God is saying about that. I know with my bible study this morning he wanted me to know to stay strong and to not let people bring me down. He walks with me and I walk with him.

God has let people see that I didn't mean any harm in what I had posted. The adults have apologized and those are the only one's I really care about, I don't sweat the others! Hopefully now they will see that I am not all about hurting others, that is the farthest thing from my mind. I do what God wants me to do and that is to even love my enemy, don't treat evil with evil and bless those who persecute you. That's a big pride barrier that I had to break to be able to treat others this way. But like I said before I am at peace with who I am, where I am and what all God has given me. No one can break my spirit as long as I have God. It was all out of good intentions, came from the bottom of my heart and got twisted into a big mess. But God had something in store for me. I thank him for that, I am always grateful.